deathrashed: Demenz - The Search (1996)

Information

Artist – Demenz

Album – The Search

Label – Independent

Released – 1996

Type – Full-length

Genre – Death Metal

Notes

Recording

All songs recorded March 1996;songs 1,2 recorded August 1996 at Flo,Musik Bunker Aachen.

Identifiers

Barcode: none
Matrix / Runout: S PANT 197 AY 8 01
Mould SID Code: IFPI 8777
Rights Society: GEMA
Other (etched in the inner ring): 11

Tracklist

1. At the Edge (Special-Flo-Mix) – 06:24 >

Flowers are brought
To my grave
But they will
Slowly wither
Tears drop
At my funeral
But they will
Slowly dry

Reflections now
Illusions end
At the edge

Pain is cried out
But it will heal
Promises are made
They will forget
Illusions will end
Reflections now

Reflections now
Illusions will end
At the edge

Tried to call out
But no-one heard
I will go on
But not at your side
No crime inside
To say goodbye

Reflections now
Illusions will end
At the edge

2. Dear Parents (Special-Flo-Mix) – 04:36 >

[ar:Demenz]
[al:The Search]
[ti:Dear Parents (Special-Flo-Mix)]
[length:04:36]

You want to be good parents
But I mark you wrong
Why don't you understand
Why don't you see
That I grow up
And feelings awake in me
That tear my heart in two
Why don't you see

Can't you hear my cry for help
Don't you see my tears
Which I cry in hope
That you put your arms around me
Or don't you want to see
That I'm becoming an adult
I can't suppress my feelings
Which take my will to live

Try to understand me
I can't direct these emotions
Can't you remember
That you had them also
It's difficult to handle them
Oh don't you even want
Otherwise these feelings
Will burst my inner self

Please don't laugh at me
Take me for serious
Don't tease me
Because the deeper becomes my desperation.

3. Free Falling – 03:45 >

People in the dark
In the corner of a big straight flat

Climbing up the top
Watching life down there

Set me free

Down

Little lights spinning around
Seem like calling me to come
Million eyes looking at me
Paradise will set me free

Deep in the night
The sun is shining brightly

Fear of falling
Desire of falling down

Little lights spinning around
Seem like calling me to come
Million eyes looking at me
Paradise will set me free

Set me free

Down

Little lights spinning around
Seem like calling me to come
Million eyes looking at me
Paradise will set me free

4. Nightmares – 06:11 >

I close my eyes
Looking through the darkness
Madness creeping into my brain

Hundreds of eyes
Jump out of the dark surrounding
I feel a warm breath on my neck

I'm not alone
I know someone's looking at me
The wait for the failure I will make

Hear their footsteps behind
I run as fast as I can
But I have no chance
To get out of this scene

No way out - I am lost
I can't stop (Nightmares)
That frantic show (Nightmares)
A victim of my dreams

The distance shrinks
They are reaching for me
I feel their nails
Bore into my skin
With a deep hot burning
The pain makes me weaker
I am damned
I know they'll tear
My body apart

No way out - I am lost
I can't stop (Nightmares)
That frantic show (Nightmares)
A victim of my dreams

They thirst for me
Their grunt roars
Through the air
They're yearning for
Suck the life out of me
I run further
Their look burn
I stumble
Now I'm lost

No way out - I am lost
I can't stop (Nightmares)
That frantic show (Nightmares)
A victim of my dreams

I scream in despair
Lie on my back
In fear and anger
A dozen creatures around
Laughing at me

5. Civilization Commits Murder - Another Victim – 07:09 >

Suffering was my life,
Pain my companion until death
I had no chance to choose,
Had my whole life through to lose

I was dedicated, born into a static frame
The cage of civilization, no exit from this game

Pain - Desire - Torture - Death
They talk about love, talk about hate
Talk about freedom and the liberty in faith

Just empty words of a fulfilling life
The final solution to stab the knife

Moving like a puppet when they were pulling at my strings
Feel like push down on my knees as if honoring their kings,
They walk in line, there is no chance to break out,
I've already realized I'm just a number in this crowd

When I had my own ideas of going through my life
They ever kicked me back, in their chains I learned to dive
I sink down in their stream, there's no place left to breathe,
No-one cares about my feelings, I think I have to leave

Pain - Desire - Torture - Death
They talk about love, talk about hate
Talk about freedom and the liberty in faith

Desire choked down, reality hurts me
I'm searching for a way to break free

This is the end, I won't go on
I've no urge, can't stand this run,
I've got through all this pain
This whole torture all in vain
Now this game is over, I'm glad to say goodbye,
But don't call it suicide, I'm just a victim, hear my cry

Pain - Desire - Torture - Death
They talk about love, talk about hate
Talk about freedom and the liberty in faith

Just empty words, how they want to see their life
It's just a farce, so I close my eyes.

6. The Search – 04:51 >

Walking through the darkness
Wondering what will be the aim

With each step I get closer to
Breaching something that is invisible

I feel the air becoming thick,
Breathing hurts like a knife in my breast

I am walking - Don't know where I'm going to
I am walking - Search for myself
Who I am - What I am
Who I am - Search for myself

Who and what awaits for me
Will it drag, will it drag me 'til the end

I am walking - Don't know where I'm going to
I am walking - Search for myself
Who I am - What I am
Who I am - Search for myself

Once upon I was a strong guy
Now I'm just an empty shell

What had killed my self conciousness
Why did I become so weak

I feel my shoulders hanging down
I'm tired, where am I going

I am walking - Don't know where I'm going to
I am walking - Search for myself
Who I am - What I am
Who I am - Search for myself

What is the meaning in my life
Is it the walk I try now

Will I reach the unknown aim
Is it right to do it now

Walking through the darkness
With this pain in body and soul

Who am I

7. Mistakes – 01:58 >

If you gonna make a mistake, so I will kill you

When I put a question you should give the right answer
That is my answer
Another answer
Is the wrong answer

When I request a behaviour you should behave the right way
That is like I behave
Another behavior
Is the wrong behavior

Your first mistake will be punished - Abusively
Your second mistake will be punished - Corporally
Your third mistake will be punished - Tormently
Your fourth mistake is your last - It's lethal

When I show you a picture you should have the right view
That is like my view
Another view
Is the wrong view

When I tell you some words you have to understand them the right way
That is my way
Another way
Is the wrong way

I will teach you to obey my authority

Your first mistake will be punished - Abusively
Your second mistake will be punished - Corporally
Your third mistake will be punished - Tormently
Your fourth mistake is your last - It's lethal

When I allow you to fight you should fight on my side
That is the right side
Another side
Is the wrong side

When I allow you to think you should have the right thoughts
That are my thoughts
Any other thoughts
Are the wrong thoughts

If you make a mistake, so I will kill you

Your first mistake will be punished - Abusively
Your second mistake will be punished - Corporally
Your third mistake will be punished - Tormently
Your fourth mistake is your last - It's lethal

8. Gonna Die – 06:52 >

This is your last walk
If you gonna die

No-one can help you
Find peace with yourself
You'll stay alone
If you gonna die

You stay alone
In darkness
Without future
You move on

Try to open
Up the doors
To a place
That's without pain

You will gonna die
Die you gonna die
If you will die
You'll stoon be forgotten
If you gonna die
You soon will rotten and be forgotten

This is your last walk
If you gonna die

You stay alone
In darkness
Without future
You move on

Try to open
Up the doors
To a place
That's without pain

You will gonna die
Die you gonna die
If you will die
You'll stoon be forgotten
If you gonna die
You soon will rotten and be forgotten

9. Course of Life – 06:49 >

When he was young, he had no fear
He dreamt of success and career
A little house, a dainty wife
Two children, that was his planned life
His parents said be ambitious
Later on you'll be one of the richest

Sparks in his eyes
He feels he's mad
Pain in his mind
Too weak to go ahead
He is torn
Explosion in his head

And so obedient he worked hard
He spared his money, because smart
He bought a house and got engaged
He was promoted 'cause he was a sage
His parents they were really proud
When someone in his front has bowed

Sparks in his eyes
He feels he's mad
Pain in his mind
Too weak to go ahead
He is torn
Explosion in his head

But suddenly he realized
Life without joy but well organized
What he had done, he does not know
His life was just a frantic show
Frustrated in the course of his life
His inner feelings he had never realized

All this years were just a failure
He himself built up this mania
He's a captive of his fate
He feels his bursts, growling self hate
Now he has fear, what should he do
His life's a mass of... - And what about you???

Sparks in his eyes
He feels he's mad
Pain in his mind
Too weak to go ahead
He is torn
Explosion in his head

Total length: 48:35